I dont know if it was a wrong move to enter IMM today or not cos it ended up spending few hundred bucks today. CRAP!!! i feel damn broke now :(((( just paid for the bazaar thing also, hopefully i'd be able to earn some money with a whacky plan of selling tidbits lol. just for fun i guess.

today was seriously tiring. Walked like non stop for 6 hours, towards the end was really bad..... still had to carry like close to 20 items and 2 big bags of shoppings we did. and yay i like dom's new shoes ^^

Sry nick for making you wait for us then end up never go :( really very tired...

but happy birthday benny :D


Today was a relaxing day slacking at dommy's house and chatting non stop about lotsa interesting things :D

& today, walking around raffles city mall was a wrong choice just to find food. Where requests to find nice and tattered new jeans and stomachs to fill was the reason. Stepped into topshop, tried on a formal pants. darn was too fat to fit it though the cutting was damn nice :(
Turned around and saw this velvet jacket, so soft and comfy, slight shines here and there, boy was it so comfortable! which dom said it was nice and I SHOULD BUY.

why not? After considering here and there for soooooo long, i asked this question. " Look like prostitute? AND DANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Decision was from 80% buy it to 20% buy it. oh mannnnnnn :(((((((


SHOULD I??? SO COMFORTABLE LEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


I really must blog this.

i know seriously im supposed to be studying but bstats is really killing me. But oh thanks i finished my last 3-4 blur/never read through before topics and all i need to do now is practice practice and practice.

So after some studying, also after finishing the movie we left out ytd of Sister Act, we headed to Iluma bugis. Which means...........TORNADO!

And hell it was.spent a freaking $46 on the pushing out the sweets machine T.T but only thing is that its pushing out 3 what seems like a soft toy but is actually some laptop cover thingy, 1 can of FOX sweets, 1 hello panda, 2 Prawn crackers and 1 tao kae noi.

From $4, add another $10, $10, and moreeee...... just to push those things out. We got all except 3 more items which seemed impossible to push out anymore :(((

Oh man feel so guilty for spending so much on this machine. buttt..... its the fun that counts right??? LOL


stocks for jeans wasnt a good experience today. sucky attitude and all but bii was such a nice person today ^^ helping me do stuff when he saw my expression before i even said anything woohooo.. you're learning baby <3







I CANNOT get angry on Valentines cum CNY day.
Or it will be another screwed Vday :)

2 false hopes up today and went crashing down.


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Well well well.... just went i was feeling so moody over it, i heard a gentle knock on my door.
Thinking it must be a salesman, i went to look at the peephole as usual. Lo and behold!
it was dom at the door! ~woahhhhhhh

with with..... famous amos plastic bagggggggg!! ^^

I still dont know whats inside cos.... okay i will carry on with it later :D

I was too shocked for words and all i could do was mouth a "wait!". Looking at my brother sleeping not far away, mom bathing, dad at work (yes at work on the 1st day of CNY), it was coast clear.....for the time being. I was panicking what if my eldest bro suddenly came home, he'd meet dom outsidee!

I rushed to change, told mom i need to go out walk awhile and left the house with just my handphone and my wallet. without comb for once :P


Still, in such a daze, we met at the playground downstairs where we walked and walked and took mrt to boon lay! I was overwhelmed by the speed of things that i needed to sort in my mind, an anger i had to get over in such a short period, thats why i couldnt show him that i was happy when i saw him at the door! :(((((

buttttt he made the day way better just by coming here :)))) with amosss hehehee.... being a badass, i had to ask him to take home the amos and give me again tmr:((( am so afraid my mom'd see or brothers... and im gonna be so dead!

I was really happy inside, but with fear of being found out.... so it was a really mixed face that i have. I feel bad letting dom feel as if i dont appreciate it..... but indeed i do!! reallly. with so many circumstances you've read so far... that was what was bothering me only...

It was so sweet for him to come over to "make up" for his batt flat. and supposedly to go out in the noon but also due to some weather conditions, that made my day mad and boring, we didnt.

Thanks bi =)))))) you're still the best bf alive for me !


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Moving on, yesterday was chinese new year's eve.
Didnt go out again. Helped mom make the special mushrooms, mixed the ingredients and stuff :))) the mushroom was sooo DA WHOOM!!! yum yum ^^ all 40 mushrooms were down-ed by us!

It was really a reunion dinner for my family. 5 people sitting at the table, after what seemed like almost a year not doing so, always one person or more missing from the table. Having the manners to call...... it was nice :)

Then received ang bao from parents :D

Watched avatar with parents at night :)


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Dad had to work. Only because he's working at the Sentosa IR now.
I'm glad its way less boring for him now that he has the pass to simply walk over to Universal Studios, Casino anytime :)))

My dad even had the chance to try out the Casino, with free CHIPS, and gamble before its opening!. Free money to try.. who dont want :P

And he said Singapore's Universal Studio still cant beat Tokyo's Disneyland, still quite small or smth!

yesterday's casino opening turn out was still the blast. Damn lot of ppl i saw from the picture. Thats how Casinos make money!


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Going out soon! after lunch :)
Gonna go nick's house with bi and probably bi's friends house. which i feel............. hahahaha nvmmm.

Happy chinese new year!

& oh!

HAPPY VALENTINES! to those yesterday :)))



Reblogged from Chappy It brought tears to my eyes. Maybe it would do that to you too.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife’s divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.


time's for studying now.
Watched a couple of movies lately!
"The Brothers Grimm", "Surrogates", "Snakes on a fright" and "The Marine".
seriously, dom's house collection of DVDs is superb. Well, those movies were watched within one week, a form of relaxation, sometimes a distraction from studying.

I always look for movies now when im stressed! & these movies certainly freaked me out the other night when i was trying to sleep!

Wednesday - Went to Redhill mrt and waited for Mayni to come fetch me to her new house. Studied at the reading room from 1pm till 5pm. Caryn came to join at 2pm. It was a good day's work yesterday. Wasnt able to concentrate that long this past week other than yesterday. Air con room at the right temperature, Proper spacious table and comfy chair:)

Heeeee we persuaded Mayni to bring us up to her house .... and oh my how spacious it was! Scenery from her view of 28th floor isnt anything compared to her previous house though. It was reallly filled with TREES. Forested area LOL.

Off to meet dom and supposedly customer, but din meet in the end as i couldnt find the item that she wanted to purchase :S Met another 2 customers in the morning :D

this week's orders were tremendous. Made me so busy on tuesday night! rushing here and there, meeting 4 customers at one go, different locations. Hell it was, but we made it :D

Gonna start studying again soon. I have GPA to pull up this sem!






ITB presention was great today :) Happiest with this presentation ever. Well, at least hard work, sacrificed sleep, and moodiness paid off?
Went to school feeling so frustrated with everything today... but it got better after i did script during whole of bstats tutorial.
ended up there was still confusion in our slides during the presentation LOL.

Went off to meet bi to get his ezlink card and passed him snacks again :D
Headed off home..... you simply cannot imagine the feeling i felt, when my head touched the ever so soft pillow, as my whole body went limp in bed and i travelled off to a semi conscious state. the feeling was exotic and my sleep was finally replenished.

Oh god how happy i felt to be able to get that extra sleep after sleeping so late everyday rushing all the scripts for each projects!
woke at 6pm to meet bi...for dinner. He waited for me under my block as i dragged myself out of sleep =)))) ooopsy! made him wait for 20 mins... hehe

Had KFC, talk and went home =))

Last presentation tmr!

How i long for tmr to end, i would be SOOOO FREE!

Mayni, caryn, yanting, must study together hor!!! :D


Life is great :)
Even with ITB and CATs still not done, i've been happy these past days.
I've been spending lotsa time in dom's house, doing up all the projects.
Ytd, 3 hours flew by when i was touching up on CATs. Our break was hahahaha soooooooooooooo funnnny :))))))

hahaha went home feeling super tired but happy. Happy with life, happy with you, happy even with projects knowing that its just a passing phase. cos i know, things between us arent that fragile.

Bcomm presentations now! So sry mayni i came 5 mins late and couldnt be in the class when you were presenting :( sorry ttm!!!! :((((((((((((